My Black is NOT Cracking.

I'm not Aging. I'm appreciating in value!

There is loss. And there is a kind of loss that knocks the wind out of you because it arrives without warning. No slow decline. No preparation. No long goodbye that allows your heart to quietly start making accommodations for what is coming. Someone I loved died suddenly last week at 47 years old. Forty-seven. …

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Neil Diamond and Sweet Caroline are in heavy rotation in the office. By 2 PM I can barely breathe between the yawns. The busy boredom of soul-sucking work. The people are great. The environment, for the most part, is relaxed. So relaxed, in fact, that while filing, I find myself wondering exactly who the first …

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Remember when you were young and every little thing felt like the end of the world? Life was over because someone didn’t call. Life was over because a relationship ended. Life was over because your boss looked at you funny. Life was over because your feelings got hurt, your plans fell apart, or somebody had …

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Aging, I have determined, is the longest-running reality show none of us auditioned for! Yet, here we are, still somehow making it to the next episode. (No one wants to be sent home just yet! You know? Yeah, if you believe in that sort of thing.  I’m referring to the “upper room!” Okay, now I …

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There is a squirrel outside my window who lives a more decisive life than most humans I know. Not a better life. Not a more comfortable one. But definitely a more committed one. I mean being a squirrel is basically a full-time job of split-second, life-or-death decision making. Every. Single. Day. All Day! Cross the …

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Where are my 70’s people?  There was a song by BT Express in the early 70’s called “Do it.”  (You know that period where all the best music was created!) Anyway, the first few lyrics were, “Ooh go on and do it. Do it. Do it til you’re satisfied.  Whatever it is, do it!  Do …

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I’m in full closet clean-out mode. You know the ritual. The seasonal migration. Winter clothes go into exile, stuffed into plastic bins like they did something wrong, and spring/summer gets resurrected. I got rid of four Amazon bins of clothes in 2024. FOUR! That felt like growth.  Healing. Personal evolution. I let go of a …

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One Life to Live – And it’s not a daytime drama! (or maybe it is!) “Every ending is a beginning to something.”  We don’t often know exactly what it is. Ah Yes. So beautiful. So, poetic. Deep. Also… hella unhelpful when your life feels like it is falling apart. It is true.  In this life, …

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This is some special kind of exhaustion that is coming from trying to stay positive when life is doing the absolute most. I mean, let’s be honest, sometimes life lately isn’t just hard. It often feels impossible to stay positive when everything around you feels like it’s falling apart.  Not just in my world, but …

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Somewhere inside all of us lives our wounded inner child. She’s (or HE’s!) small. (Well not anymore, especially in that midsection.) Emotional. Possibly wearing pajamas at noon. Whispering, “You know what would fix this? Some toll house cookies! Or brownies!” Not one brownie. A whole ass pan of brownies! Warm. Fresh out of the oven. …

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